CNY !

Chinese New Year? Yeah! Cuti! Even setakat 4 hari ja aku still suka. Sebab aku sangat malas bila kena attend kelas. Tapi tu dah memang kewajipan sebagai seorang pelajar kan. So kena terima jelah. So, on this coming holiday, I'll go back to my sister's house. One of my roommate pun ikut sekali. And the best part is, my mother and my siblings are also coming to my sister's house. Yes, even aku tak balik Penang pun, I'll still got to see them.  But, aku tak rasa aku akan melepak saja sebab ada banyak kerja kena settle. Boleh ja kalau taknak buat lagi all those assignments, tapi pandai2 faham sendiri lah. Aku jugak yang akan merana kalau tak start early. So, I have listed down all the things need to be done during this short break. Let's have a look :D

p/s: Screen Capture.

Ni belum detail lagi. haha. There's still a lot of works, tapi baik aku settle yang ni dulu. kan? Hehe, thank you.

Boleh Sebenarnya

Alhamdulillah. Baru lepas settle Quiz 2 Economy pagi tadi. And i thought i can't really do it when it comes to Chapter 6. Remember my previous post? Yeah, memang, boleh buat sebenarnya if aku terus berusaha. What happens if aku langsung tak put any effort? For sure aku tak boleh buat. And now, I'm in love with Chapter 6 Economy. Haha. Macam funny pulak. Whatever it is, the main point here is doing something without any effort is like putting yourself into a Klang valley. Sebab aku akan rasa macam mensia-siakan diri aku sendiri yang attend every class (2 hari je ponteng setakat ni,:P)selama ni, tapi still tak boleh buat. So, aku sangat2 bersyukur, even tu baru kejayaan kecil aku, aku tetap rasa sangat bersyukur because without keizinan Allah SWT, I won't be able to do it, and I won't be able to get those successes until now. :)

Chapter Six !

No no no ! I just don't know what's wrong with my head. Ataupun aku yang terlalu bodoh kurang pandai untuk faham benda yang simple? Yaww Economy, benda alah ni buat aku serabut. Next Tuesday will be having quiz 2 on Chapter 6.  Macam takde dah chapter lain Sir ni nak pilih.  I can feel that i'll get frustrated later after this. I hate this stupid feeling.  I even feel more stupid bila study pun still tak paham. Taknak la camni. :(

Little Star Twinkling.

 There are a lot of stars on the sky,

Just pick one of it and make it yours,
Ensure that the single star you've picked will shine always,

Don't ever let the star's shines vanish,

Just because of your carelessness.

I'm wishing, yes I am

what i have to do to have you near me? I don't need you to be near me physically. Be near to my heart. I'm afraid i would hate this hopeless feeling, it just that i know that you are getting far from me by time. What am i supposed to do to have you by my side, being in your mind always? Really wish that i could be the only person that you've been thinking of. I really miss the moment, where I can say anything that cross through my mind, even it is good or bad, i miss the moment that you're warning me on my silly words and actions. I'm sorry, it is true that the feelings of two people which claims themselves as lover, would never ever be congruent to each other. But then, i always say that it is like it is.  We need to try hard in order to get anything. But to have your feelings towards me, it is impossible. Even i have tried so hard, if your heart does not have a vacant for me, there's no use. :'(

"And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here"

"All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here"

-Avril Lavigne, Wish You Were Here-

perlu ke? being honest is the best yaww.

okay, straight to the point, aku tak suka kau tipu, and kau pun tak suka aku menipu. aite? mana santun kau masa mula2 aku kenal kau dulu? Aku tak kisah kalau kau nak terasa or whatever after you've read this entry. Memang nak kasi kau terasa dan supaya kau boleh recall balik janji2 kau dulu. Dah banyak kali aku pesan, aku tak kisah kau nak pergi ke mana2 pun, dengan sesapa pun, just tell me the truth. Takpayah cakap kau kat rumah tengah buat this and this but then aku still boleh discover yang kau memang tak ada pun di rumah. Kau ingat aku bodoh? Hello man, I do looks stupid, but i'm not stupid. Terkejut dengan ayat aku? Go and tell your friends lah.  Sebab aku memang tak percaya kau lagi. Kau nak cakap yang aku ni tak boleh bertolak ansur? Okay, dah banyak benda sangat aku dah tolak ansur dengan kau. But then, ada kau hargai? Oh man, aku tak mintak kau hargai aku sampai kena tatang aku macam minyak penuh or what so ever. Boleh kau respect aku? Hah, aku tahu, tak style lah kau pulak kena respect budak mentah macam aku ni kan? i don't even reach 20 years old yet pun kan? Aku bukan nak marah, aku kecewa. Kau tak jujur dengan aku. And jangan expect yang aku  nak percaya lagi kau sebab aku tahu, kau tak boleh nak buang habit kau sekarang. There's nothing much to ask for. Just go on with your life, keep doing whatever that you like most.

p/s : tidak ditujukan kepada my MF. sekian.

I just love doing stupid things. betul lah tu.

            There's many things i'm wishing i didn't do.  I'm sorry for not being a kind of person you're wishing to have. Well if you ask me, it is all about the past. There's nothing good in tracking it back. I'm trying to live my life to the fullest. People change. The same goes to their heart, their thinking on things in this world. They can easily create such promises that they know aren't gonna be fulfilled by themselves. Being left and leaving? What's the big deal with that? Just accept that as a part of our life. Get use to this kind of thing. What's the use of the overwhelming kind of love if there's always cheating and being cheat? Just so you know your partner aren't going to create a fuss in your relationship, so just go with the flow. Isn't it fun? It is fun because it is a kind of uncertainty in your life. I strongly believes that uncertainty is suppose to be fun and challenging because we cannot expect what's gonna happen in future. So i just love doing stupid things. Thank you.

Over and over again. To MF, thanks for tickling my mind up. That's all for tonight. Assalamualaikum.

a quote

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation, 

therefore i am learning from those experiences that the greater part 

of my happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, 

and not upon our circumstances.

# by: Martha Washington

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Boleh macam tu? Dua sem berturut dapat result yang sama. sangat tak expect macam ni. apa apa pun, alhamdulillah. :D

p/s: this short post is suppose to be created on 4th November 2011.